Happy first anniversary, australia.
Wow, time really flies! It has been a year since I came here in Australia and I SURVIVED!!! It was hard, I'll tell you hahaha but then again, I survived. There were times (a lot, actually) that I just want to go home to the Philippines because I am freaking drained. I don't want to be an independent adult anymore. I want to give up or just go back to being a kid again and just think about home works or projects rather than stressing about budgeting for me to get by until the next pay day. I missed sleeping as long as I want on weekends or just hanging out on free days not thinking so much about the money I'm going to spend because I don't have to pay for my rent, tuition fees etc. I missed going home and sleeping on a huge bed and a spacious room and nothing to stress about all the mess and on how to sort everything in a room that is half a size of it, and a closet where I can fit all of my clothes because all I have now are 3 drawers & a garment rack with a capacity of just 2-kg. & I have been stressing on how I can fit everything in it, if I will fold it or roll it or just throw everything in it. I missed the times when I have nothing to worry about what or where I am going to eat because I am just waiting for my mom to call us when the food is served....
Those are my complaints & discontentments that I kept ranting on about in my first year here. I was really ungrateful to the point that I forgot to see all the blessings on my lap. I even forgot that some of the things in my life right now were the things that I have prayed or wished for when I was younger. I chose not to see the beauty of everything. As I kept on having this attitude, I didn't notice that I also forgot to say "Thank you, Lord" from the moment I open my eyes in the morning & before I go to sleep. I became selfish until it was a Sunday and I am walking around the city, it was cold and I can see a lot of homeless people around. People who does not have any shelter for them to keep warm. People who does not have any cozy bed or even a small room to sleep in peacefully but instead, they are lying on the streets where there are people & noisy vehicles passing by. Then there was a short video that was played in the church about their sponsored children in different countries but mostly in Africa. I was moved by their stories and I felt guilty because I really don't have any reason to be ungrateful. Some of them are big families, 10+ children, who are living in a tiny house. One bedroom but sleeping on the floor, some does not have any bathroom. Majority of the families have lost a loved one or two because of illness, and they don't have enough money to pay for medicines or hospital bills. They cannot eat nutritious meals at all, cannot have a proper education. Children that are victim of poverty, but still look at the reasons to love & praise God.
Those are my complaints & discontentments that I kept ranting on about in my first year here. I was really ungrateful to the point that I forgot to see all the blessings on my lap. I even forgot that some of the things in my life right now were the things that I have prayed or wished for when I was younger. I chose not to see the beauty of everything. As I kept on having this attitude, I didn't notice that I also forgot to say "Thank you, Lord" from the moment I open my eyes in the morning & before I go to sleep. I became selfish until it was a Sunday and I am walking around the city, it was cold and I can see a lot of homeless people around. People who does not have any shelter for them to keep warm. People who does not have any cozy bed or even a small room to sleep in peacefully but instead, they are lying on the streets where there are people & noisy vehicles passing by. Then there was a short video that was played in the church about their sponsored children in different countries but mostly in Africa. I was moved by their stories and I felt guilty because I really don't have any reason to be ungrateful. Some of them are big families, 10+ children, who are living in a tiny house. One bedroom but sleeping on the floor, some does not have any bathroom. Majority of the families have lost a loved one or two because of illness, and they don't have enough money to pay for medicines or hospital bills. They cannot eat nutritious meals at all, cannot have a proper education. Children that are victim of poverty, but still look at the reasons to love & praise God.